Join me..playing with 'bedak'

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Holiday..oh holiday. I'm end up with doing nothing except attending several wedding ceremony in a row.Yesterday, alhamdulillah I met my sweet2 best friend during her bro-in law wedding. Huhu..a mom-2-be in 2 months times insyaAllah, happy to see her again..of course, a lot to share and talk about..so relieve!Oh, I dont take to heart when everyone start to raise this common question~bila nak kawin?'. I just smile sheepishly as usual..oh alot to think of lately..but no conclution yet..haha so what the purpose I thinking about it then?

This week, I had to make some visit to KL.Yup,KL is our second house for some reasons. But, for sure, KL life is not suit at all. Preferably~Perak;my father's hometown..but foremost of course Kelantan Darul Naim. Boxes of books need to be settle down first.After 5 years, I barely had to admit that I wasted bundles of papers for no purpose of drawings, poems...even short essays.Unfortunetly, I had to get rid of them. Last day in USMKK really get me into tears,after 5 years..5 years, time flew quickly.

Having hard times in exams, clinic and during presentation that had been the most valuable and priceless moments. Do I have the guts to undergo this once again.Well,let se after I polish my skill and knowledge within 3 years. I love to treat and I love to teach. But then, family come first.

I always think about I'm going to be if not a dentist?Well, I cannot imagine anything else other than dentistry.Bluffing Fizah..hehe.To future to-be dentist, 'play' hard and work smartly/hard. Don't take it easy, knowledge come and go in a time. Happy learning and teaching others..

Live life like worth..

Class of 2003/2008

Weekend Dishes

Ini meatball ~beefsteak (my version)..of course xcantek sbb I run out of tepung jagungIni pulak ikan kembung kecik2 cili padi..ops siapalah yang siang ikan ni..tak lawa

Ini pulak kuali yg banyak berjasa..even buruk tp bguna utk masak..lupa nk cakap: terima kasih kuali mak.

Ini hasilnya selepas menggoreng dalam penuh kekurangan..acceptable so klu GDP log book dptlah 65%...kata doktor.

Ini dishes overall, jemputlah makan. Cooking is my fave. part time..I love to cook but at the same time I'm lazy too...because books get me hook for centuries.

Debu-debu bintang~translated

Life is unexpected..but the least you can you is try hard and forget the past, the thing you don't deserve. Introspeksi diri, say no word about your lost. Past never behold anything of tommorow.Things going to be 'occay' then.

Two of my bestie going to be mummy soon. And one going to be wed this April. Congrats to:

Tuan Maznah and her spouse to-be. Miss her a lot, since she always with me during up and high moment in secondary school. Jazakillah ya ustazah! We share a lot in common. Dia imam, saya makmunnya. Dia ketua, saya jua ahlinya. A great leader she is.

My legs cramp, my mouth has an ulcer, my hand aching(even i always thought about Carpal Tunnel Syndrom!). Interview quite ok lah, they ask me about IOTN~accountability and so on. So apa lagi, IOTN I study, but then others..goreng2.Prinsip saya mudah, jangan kata tak tahu,tak sure. Just say anything. Because by chances,it might be true. Macam saya..haha.

p/s : sblm interview sempat lagi tgk movie 'Stardust' from friends laptop.Kelakar cite tuh..itupun tgk first 15 minutes je.Then..loceng berbunyi.

I wish, i could be at home tak payah pegi Penang kan. Home is the best,comfy and secure in the world,isn't it?

Alahai..Miss Competent

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Demam PRU sudah berlalu,sekaligus mencatat pengalaman berharga untuk saya.Ya.Kerana saya ditemani buah hati saya tercinta hingga ke pintu bilik tempat mengundi.Saya terfikir untuk 5 tahun akan datang, adakah saya masih akan berteman lagi? Dia memberi semangat dan kesungguhan yang saya tak pernah lihat selama ini. Hanya kerana dia terlalu mengharapkan kejayaan untuk Islam.Terima kasih buat ayah. Dan saya seakan memahami, kenapa saya amat beruntung mempunyai ayah. Terima kasih Allah.

Masa makin cepat berlalu, maka seiring dengan exam final yang menambahkan debaran untuk semua undergrads. Sukar menentukan apa yang bakal mendatang. Cuma melalui hari-hari dengan berjuta harapan dan impian. Tinggal usaha dan doa yang tak putus. Semuanya masih di tanganNYA.

Entah apa yang jadi pada saya akhir-akhir ini, setiap petang semasa GDP (general dental practice), saya seolah addicted untuk treat 2 patient. Bayangkan, dengan instrument yang kehabisan saya tak cukup tangan untuk handle material dan patient sekaligus. Tetapi saya belajar untuk merancang terlebih dahulu dan bekerja secara sistematik. Itu yang saya belajar dari staff nurse,DSA(dental surgeon assistant). Kelak, di KKM...ingat walaupun anda seorang doktor, staff di bawah anda bukanlah yang seperti anda sangka. Mereka akan memerhati, membuat andaian, dan even cakap-cakap belakang jika kalian tidak competent melakukan kerja, buat kerja lambat,tak berdisiplin. Anda dinilai oleh orang bawahan.

Maka, semasa belajar inilah jangan sesekali memanjakan diri. Kerja kuat dan selalu ringan tulang membantu orang. Usah berkira sangat dan cepat melatah. Timbalah pengalaman dari orang yang lebih berpengalaman dan hormatilah seadanya. Hidup pasti CERIA. Apapun, jangan sampai orang ambil kesempatan di atas kebaikan kita, itu dibuli namanya.

So mengikut rumus saya, untuk menjadi seorang practitioner yang baik perlulah : baik+ringan tulang+cekap+tegas+disiplin= competent.

Oleh kerana petang ini,saya terlebih competent kerana memanggil 3 orang patient (oh, bukan salah saya- patient saya suka sgt dtg, hingga tak buat appointment pun dia dtg). So, its not nice to send her home just like that, I did something- easiest ; XLA (extraction under Local Anesthetic). Pengajaran untuk saya, be prepared to face realities and suprises. Dan saya dapat gelaran Miss Competent, tapi disebabkan title itu jugaklah...saya jadi tak comperent. Percaya tak, saya terlupa untuk seal barang sebelum sterile dan membiarkan mereka itu menunggu di manakah tuan mereka. Mujur ada kawan kepada miss competent yang dah tak competent itu tolong meng'seal'kan barang-barang.

Esok, staff nurse bakal 'sound' kat saya. So, once again Be Prepare!
Miss 'Competent' bakal dimarahi esok, sabar jelah ye. Ujian datang dalam pelbagai bentuk.

Esok, Aqil bakal pulang ke negeri kelahirannya. Kesian Aqil kerana menjadi warganegeri itu. Tak bertuahnya Aqil...hihi.Itulah Kelantan best tau.

It's A Hibernating Time..

p/s: beloved cutie pie Aqil turns 1 month today.May life full with blessings and happiness ahead.

Fly..Fly Away

7.30 am
I'm waiting for them. To send Fahmi to airport. He will fly once again to pursuit his ambition. My lil' bro already big boy now. I could never imagine, he soon be away from me. Saya mengaku,kadang-kadang agak emo jg bila berhadapan dgn dia. Sebab dia selalu ambil mudah,tak dengar cakap orang dan ikut kepala dia saja.Tapi, dia tetap adik kesayangan saya bukan. Saya pun bukanlah kakak yang terbaik tetapi saya sedang belajar ke arah itu.Maka, timbal balik untuk semua itu saya kenalah berlapang dada dan redha.

800 am
Masa utk check in.Kami angkut sekotak buku-buku( milik saya dulu,sewaktu bergelar 1/2 unit medical dental student~ada atlas anatomy,grey's anatomy, physio etc).Saya serahkan semua pada dia,moga dia menggunakan sebaiknya. Ini saja yang dapat saya bantu dia selain doa. Saya sedih tapi takkanlah saya nak menangis~dah besar panjang. Tapi apa boleh buat sedangkan dalam keluarga kami takde yang duduk jauh-jauh.

Saya semakin risau bila mengenangkan tempatnya selalu ada earthquake.Kesudahannya, saya takkan dapat tidur bila ada berita earthquake sehinggalah pagi esok. Alhamdulillah,setakat ini baik-baik sj.

830 am
Tiba saatnya,saya perlu 'melepaskan' dia pergi. Instead of cakap 'Jaga diri elok2', mulut saya lancar menyebut 'Jaga buku2 elok2'. Ah,nampak sangat saya tak mahu dia pergi. Dalam hati saya,merungut dan sedikit sesal. Cuba buat ego lagi. Dia melambai, dan akan sampai ke transit LCCT sebelum ke destinasinya.

905 am
Air Asia meluncur laju dan membawa dia terbang jauh dari saya. Moga Allah melindunginya. Dan masa untuk saya ketepikan dulu perasaan sedih ini.Mungkin insyaAllah,selesai graduate bln 5 ini saya akan melawatnya.Dia pun sudi menjadi tourist guide,tetapi yang sentiasa meninggalkan clientnya di belakang!

835 pm
Oh,saya terlupa menghubunginya. Bagaimana perjalanannya? Buat kesekian kalinya, ini adik saya.Dan sampai bila2 dia akan jadi adik saya. Begitu jua adik-adik saya yang lain. Each one own their specialties

#Abscence makes the heart grow fonder

#For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; and for everything you gain, you lose something. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

#No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. -Eleanor Roosevelt

#Wisdom is the reward you get for a lifetime of listening when you would rather have talked. -Mark Twain

What A Wonderful Family

Alhamdulillah,praise to Allah for giving and gifted me with a wonderful family..hope so do you.
Never be so disappointed with what your family cannot afford.Because some way and some how Allah already givesyou anything else that others cannot have and afford.So be grateful with what you had.People something doesnt know until they lost it,and so bad it was too late to notice it.Be grateful,dear.

Early this morning,the rain pours heavily. Oh,gosh how I can get to hostel n clinic at time? Luckily, dad already noticed my worry.'Jomlah,ayah hantar.Cepat sikit,ayah ada miting kat sekolah ni'. The word 'miting' and 'ayah' cannot be separate. Poor dad, eventhough the retirement day keep aproaching him the workload and school stuffs seem occupied with him.No wonder he get hypertension as stressor keep coming.

I wonder,if dad got touched with my act of 'kindness' lately..(hoho,actually its already become my duty during monsoon season) Fetch him with car if raining during Friday's prayer. It feel great sometimes to be 'the saviour'! But of course, can you imagine being the only female in the car and all males keep staring.Saya pun nak solat Jumaat jgk.Wink*Not to included,I had to reverse here and there,baru boleh keluar.Moral of story: lain kali kena pakai spec hitam ms drive,org pun tak kenal kan?

The weekend totally relieved!We go window shopping, buy food,ingridients for cuppy cake. We baked 'makaroni bakar',cup cakes, ada sira pisang and so on.Kami memang suka masak2, makan2 dan cipta resepi baru. Since duk depan tv asyik ber'channel' AFC(asian food channel~licence to grill, Ramsay kitchen,chef at home @ large, party planner etc) so this time practice.Practice make perfect.Mom already 'geleng2' kepala dgn kami. What to do? You got wonderful girls at home happily cooking ever after.Sigh..What a wonderful family!

p/s: Hypertension ~Blood pressure (systolic : >140 mmHg)/(diastolic : >90mmHg)

Technologies..

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w : Ada dua perkara yg manusia selalu sia-siakan ~masa lapang dan masa sibuk.Ya, manusia selalu bertangguh-tangguh dan bila dah sibuk, selalu menyalahkan masa. Termasuklah penulis yang suka menangguh-nangguh benda yg blh dibuat pada masa lapang.
Hihi..semlm YM with my big bro.Dah lama xdengar cite. Rupanya dia tgh busy,br lepas shutdown. Oh,alhamdulillah dia akan pulang untk sama-sama beraya. Ada ke dia tak nak mgaku ana nih comel mcm Hadirah.Huh, sungguh egokan orang lelaki ni. Dia nak cakap,tapi dia malu kot.So ana husnu dzon jelah dgn dia.

Well, stiap kali dia balik mesti ada present utk each one.The most sporting and metrosexual bachelor. Honestly, he dress smartly although kt rumahMacam ni,org nak cari.Rasulullah pun selalu ajar agar umat Islam jd plg bersih.Bila org pandang takdelah serabut kepala.Tapi jgn pandang sebarangan,jaga pandangan.Kurang dosa, iman lebih terasa manis. Orang yang paling mjaga pandangan dan paling malu adalah khatimul anbiya' kita, ayuh kita sama mencontohi.

The good things about him is he's independent, suka jimat2 sbb tuh blh beli motor, pc ,hs and all those gadgets with his own money. Maybe inherited from dad, well hardships teach us alot.Money is a thing but not everything. Rupanya,banyak jgk things yang ana admire dgn dia. Bila drive dgn dia,sll dia senyap sbb concerntrate on driving,but sometimes dia sll acah2 nak naik atas divider lah,roundabout..apekah?Next is, he's sportman whoa with his height(i'm just below his shoulder) he can play everything bola keranjang,bola tampar ever he swim faster than us. Our family actually actively involved in sport,except me which quit netball at standard 6. He used to teach me to play ping pong, badminton, petanque but not yet tennis.

Technologies sometimes do good deed.

Salah Faham Saje..

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Hari ini ana encounter dengan satu pengalaman yang melucukan.
Semasa on the way balik dari klinik tetiba terserempak dengan junior yang tengah naik motor sambil melambai dia melaung ‘ Akak, selamat pengantin baru’ .Ana terkedu, tersenyum sorang2 sampai ke bilik.Bila masa ana akad nikah, bila kenduri dan siapalah yang ‘bertuah’ jadi suami ana ? Ohoh..bertuahnya ‘si dia’! Oh baru ana teringat semalam ana letak gambar kahwin senior di tingkap YM tanpa sebarang quotation. Patutlah dia salah faham. Step seterusnya, penjelasan semula atas salah faham ini sebelum khabar angin ini tersebar meluas. Persoalannya, muka macam ana ni layak ke nak kawin..isk..isk sadisnya.Takpe2,. Tiap-tiap orang dah Allah tetapkan masa dilahirkan, rezeki, dosa, pahala, dimatikan dan jodohnya.

Adik akan fly by 25th ni..sedihnya sebelum puasa dan raya dalam dua sama ada balik atau tak. Maka sambutan raya tahun ini tak semeriah dahulu kala.Tiba-tiba, jadi rindu sangat pada Perak,pekan Parit and Kuale Kangso , opah dan bau segar kampung serta sepupu-sepupu yang hensem2 dan rajin masuk dapur.Erk..hihi. Orang nama Syed2 ni kan biasanya,hensem2 tak gitu? Since family sebelah ayah ramai lelaki, so melihat kaum Adam di dapur dan menyediakan juadah adalah pemandangan yang biasa bagi kami. Terbalik jadinya,tapi baguslah ada masanya kaum Hawa pun nak rehat jugak dari terperuk kat dapur.

Jumpa Dr supervisor, terus kecoh. Fizah ni,selalu pening kepala. Ala Dr,bukan selalu pun.

Stuck On You

Bagaimana kehidupan akan datang?Adakah manusia perlu memikirkannya? Jauh atau dekat? Sejauh mana perlu kita merancang? Bagaimanakah kita perlu melaluinya? Oh..banyak soal pulak bakal Dr ni.

Betulkah orang kampung tak kisah sama ada kita ini Dr gigi atau Dr perubatan? Terima kasih kpd tuan yg mnyatakannya..memang betullah tu.They don't care if you are the dentist as long as you carried the title Dr.They asking you from A to Z.But that doesn't matter, the dentist also learnt the medical side. I'm already miss the medical part, the feeling into it esp pharmacology~I dun know but I'm too in love with prescribing.

Today I get an injection, initial treatment for my allergy to mosquito. Before this, I'm 'happily' injected my patient..now I'm suffer for it.Hate needle so much..but that's nothing compare to biopsy.Then, I've to take Green Tea Colostrum~OMG. I don't drink tea and milk.So when I had to take sip by sip with closed nose..haha.Antioxidant is good for our cell's survival. Some people suffered from fragile and easily break up cell eg: G6PD. So antioxidant is the answer.

What I've been doing ...

Ni lah gigi yg dh di'cut' crown portion~comey kan..kan
This one after buang smua saraf n blood vessel then kite letak K-File utk ukur(this applied in endodontic treatment)



This one..org lain takkan dpt~only me. Pesanan ikhlas dr Dr Raja Azman.Haish Dr,kata sy lambt walhal Dr jugak suruh meticulous wat keje~nice cartoon even not so canteklah Dr. Wuhuu..inilah the best n supportive supervisor!Mau beli hadiah apa ye kt Dr ni Rahim???

Pips and Her Tiramisu

Teruja melihat makanan di atas? For the sake of Pips~I upload lah gambar tiramisu dia and the strawberry ari tuh. Sori, ada pun cek mek yang hang buat tuh xsempt nk diambil gambarnya.Mana gambar spagheti seafood cheq? Berkurun lama menunggu. Hoho, skrg ptg2 rilek aje sbb elektif wat waktu pagi je.Aimnya minggu depan dah siap,so cuti lebih sikit. And currently,sambil blogging mgemas bilik.Esok nak serahkan kunci.Tiba-tiba mcm byk pula brg2nya.Yang tak tahannya, sekotak tuh penuh dgn makanan aja~sardin,biskut, mushroom soup, perencah bihun, nasi goreng,minyak and so on. Garu-garu kepala, kenapa banyak sgt mknan nih? 2 kotak notes n books, 1 box penuh dgn segala mcm kad2,ornaments,frame. Adeih, mcmana mau angkut ini. Gamaknya, terseliuh pulah tgn pulak. Mg diringankan.

Smlm shbt lama di UIA Kuantan btanya khabar di tetingkap YM(ini part time ana!). Rindu pada semua. Klu salah satu dr 3 tpt yg ana mintak utk posting~di UIA dpt so jadilah ana senior dia.Hehe, meh nak buli ckit.Lg 15 minutes sblm nk angkut barang ok,ilaliqa.

Kiss of Life..what?

Someone, take me there..

Cuti membosankan jika tiada apa yang berlaku dan dilakukan.

Tiada kesempatan untuk berjalan-jalan

Cuma merancang tahun final year yang mencabar mental dan fizikal

Kadang-kala rasa takut menyelinap

Adakah mampu menghadapi ujian yang bakal tiba?

“A thought often makes us hotter than a fire.” Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Thought without action sometimes and almost worthless.

Fahmi called me after finished his 1st paper, he used to call me 'Ello Datin' .What's up?

"Ye Dato',nak apa?' Just a chit chat btw sis n her lil bro. He's kinda of funny guy with intelligent thought and great ideas that might 'destroy' you.

Couples day ago, ada program anak yatim so in front of my room ada few of them occupied the room. Gosh, my slipper toilet disappear.Sabar jelah, nak buat mcmana diorg anak yatim.Lagipun Rasulullah s.a.w pun pesan suruh buat baik kat anak2 yatim. Can you imagine in the midnight, diorang berlari2 sekeliling corridor, ketuk pintu bilik ana berkali2~dah berapa kali jantung ana terpaksa dipam darahnya dengan laju dek kejutan diorang.Sekali lagi, sabar. Then, tiba-tiba my ear listen to a voice yg duk tgh menyanyi~teruknya hedonism yang melanda remaja2 dan anak2 kecil sekarang.

Anak-anak ana mcmana nanti? Kids are very susceptible to any mass exposure. And I don't want that quality being 'inherited' to my kids, but I can stop them to watch tv or listen to radio or surfing. As the parent, the kids need us to supervise them, what to watch and what don'ts. That's it. For sure, I used to implement my parent's methods of teaching. During my childhood, the library was my 2nd house and 'lepak2' site. If you read more books, you get the rewards later I just developed the habit of reading, improve my reading speed. (huhu, cakap mcm dah ada anak2 je). Other than that, ana nak ajar bab agama pd anak2 sendiri. Inilah gunanya klu bljr bab agama. Untuk diri sendiri n orang lain.

Apa lagi ye untuk anak2 nih..~thinking again.

Ciao...

Bintang Malam

You are my shining stars

My familia...

Shine above me

Balik ke rumah merupakan suntikan untuk bagi mereka yang mengalami jiwa 'lara' dan kesusahan yang tak dapat di atasi. Emosi ana kerap kali fluctuate, menyebabkan kejadian yang unpredictable. Sometimes can be nice but sometimes..haha 'nasty'( pasni carilah perkataan yg lbh sesuai). Yup, I'm really unpredictable..I'm not soft spoken but strict, but any other time not so lah. What's made me like this? Experiences told everything, if you too nice~people take advantage on you, if you too harsh~people won't help you anymore.So its better to be WISE, since we going to work anw.Tapi baguslah org yang baik2 ni.

Our environment different from other so don't expect other to be like us. What make you annoyed is when you expect people to turn out just like you, then you get frustrated. So xyah pening2,mind our own bussines. Nak ikut,ikut..tak nak, sudah.Hehe (cruel eh?).Rumah ana bgegar seperti garuda datang menyerang. Sebab entah angin mana datang membuatkan ana dan akak buat lawak2 nak rawat hati yang 'luka'.Luka sebab dah lama tak dpt rehat. And tolong akak halau 'pengacau'.Hoho..best myamar nih.Wat2 serius then bila 'pengacau' dah buhsan~kira mission accomplished. Pips, pasni kita plan lain pulak. Tukar je title~moderator tuh..heh xguna tau jd moderator klu xleh invite, ban and remove orang.Xbesh~kata Hadirah.Ops,jgn marah ya.

Td dh YM dgn beloved one~big bro straight away from Labuan. Miss him so much.Byk benda diceritakan.Tak sabar tggu dia balik. Makin hensem,makin banyak duit (esp for Pips the materialistic gal), makin alim dan wara'.Apapun tunggu jelah.Moga ada yang baik. Hati baik, eh?Hope so! May Allah simplify your work. Bila semua dah gather bolehlah kita wat family tournament,travel, barbeque and etc. Together we strengthen our family bond~mcm bonding agent kat klinik.

ALL THE BEST, STRIVE FOR SUCCESS. ALLAH KNOWS THE BEST. HADAPILAH DGN HATI YANG REDHA DAN MEREDHAI ~for all 3rd year for PROFESIONAL II.

Just A Day in My Life

2 am- 6 am : Snooze, planned for qiam but totally tired.

6 am - 11 am : Revision for the last time for clinical exam Class II Amalgam restoration

11 am-1.30 : Waiting at the clinic, I don't know how many times I just bluntly walk in and out from there just to convience myself. Perform Zuhur prayer and I got to face the exam anyway. So just do it.

215 - 300 : My patient's need isolation, after one hour still I got to struggle for rubber dam placement.Then, the gum start to bleed. Lastly, my Dr gave a favour~that time I think I will stuck all the way. Ya Allah, I totally thought that I'm going to lose anyway. But then...

3pm - 5pm : Alhamdulillah, my cavity prep, lining and base was checked and they all passed the criteria that needed.

515 pm : Supposedly I had to finish or the mark will be deducted, but since I had to manage the deep caries lesion treatment I thought hmm, ignore the order and I just do my work anyway. BIAR LAMBAT ASAL SELAMAT. Act to be cool eh? My collegues said that I'm too cool start from the beginning until the end because the other collegues with no deep carious lesion management did not finish before me. Well, you don't know how exactly I'm feel deep down. I almost shed my tears in front of patient. But still I try to be profesional (some said, actually my supervisor already told me~don't try to embrass me ,ok.So just go and do the good job!TQ Dr.The 'scary' word kept clouding my mind. Ya Allah, tawakkal ku hanya padaMU. Sooner or later, while finishing my job~ I can feel that both my mother and father kept pray for my exam, life: wishing that Allah simplies my work. I dunno but I just can feel that way. My mom and dad; they are my inspiring factor that hold me to go thru all this obstacle and hurdles.

7 pm: My patient called me with half crying said that she don't have any transportation for going home.It's already late! Calm down, I'm going to fetch you home with my so-called driver..hehe.

8 pm- 915 pm : Here we are at her house. You know what? I already learn a lot from her and her single parent~the mother. We always think that we face the hardest and toughest trial and difficulty in life but actually there are too many people had to go thru the difficulties in life more than we do. Sometimes we just happen by thinking it is great to be someone else rather to be ourselves but...we might not think that the 'great' person also face the turbulance like other, had high and down situation and regrets in life time.So, why trying to be others. Allah already give the equal porpotions for us. Be grateful.

915- 945 pm : I love to be someone co-pilot. I talked a lot and my driver stay alert and concious all the time. This will be my part time job when travel and on vacation with my family. For those who not really know me~they think I'm too silent, vivid and so on but actually I'm silent killer..haha. I love to observe and watching people and things. You'll learn a lot. I learn how to 'read' people from the observation. Anyway, sometimes 1st impression not enuf!

1015 pm : my stomach started to sing. Kindda of lullaby, wanted me to fill in the pouch.But I cant although this entire day I only eat one plate of rice. I had to do my 'taklifan' that had been neglected before. I'm kindda addicted to this work..totally in love. Eventhough my 'partner' is quite annoying but respect him alot for the great job, great people he got connected to and great in torturing me..I know lah, i'm junior but stop bullying me by given the ad hoc keje!

11 pm : After prepare to eat..trut.trut. 'We have meeting at 1115 after this. Whoa! I had to sacrife. My legs ached, the high heel shoes does it. Medical collegues always tempelak us~why ah, dental student always vogue with their appearance? Well, we trained to be like that, proper dressing, shoes and touch up. Not to have sandals, slipper, sport shoes or anything that obviusly shabby, out of dated etc.Huhu..we already being the dentist!

1205 am : meeting ended, actually AMAL MAAHAD going to hold an occasion : Sirih Pulang Ke Gagang sort of big family day for all the MAAHADIANs on this 16/6. Kindly to be annouced all the x-Maahadian you are welcome and invited to be there. The commuties askedfor medical and dental collegues to run the check-up or exhibition. The medical side, the Dr are incharged and for the dental~ we the dental students are the backbone of this.Haha..habislah korang kena kelantong dek kitaorg..huh kak nani, plan A yup! We are very unpredictable, yeah. Jom ramai2.

100 am : I had supper instead of dinner. Re arrange the schedule for this morning. By 10 am, I'll go to the clinic. The Dr's will have meeting for yesterday clinical exam~whose in and whose out. Ya Allah bantulah hamba-hambaMU yang menolong di jalanMU. Redhailah sepanjang perjalanan dan bidang yang kami ambil. Kuatkanlah iman kami dan tetapkanlah pendirian kami agar tidak goyah dengan ujian serta kesusahan hidup kami ini. Jadikanlah mata hati kami ini mata hati sebenar-benar mukmin.

My wish for U..

Please Come Back
Suddenly Pips told me that you're coming home this May. Wonder why? Nak engage ke? *wink*
Last Thursday, we received a wedding invitation. Open Sesame! Hah, Zafran dah nak kawin. Wargh..tak aci sungguh my tuisyen mate nih, ada ke patut langkah bendul. Takpe2, kita enjoy dulu. Enjoy belajar, enjoy being single mingle then sambung belajar..ish2, sampai bila tuh? Skrg musim football ghupeny. Patutlah ayah din nih sibuk duk tayang gambar liverpool kat YM. Taulah menang lwn Chelsea smlm. Luckily, I'm not into it. Masa form 1-3 je minat itupun selalu gaduh dgn dia. Menyampah tengok ana sokong Leeds time tuh. By the way, masa tuh berangan nak further study kat Leeds. Tapi nak wat ca ne~USMKK ni lah 'Leeds' buat ana. Bila postgrad, sambung balik angan2 ni ye Fizah.

Ho..Ho..Ho
Kalau orang tanya, banyak2 iklan dlm tv, radio. Iklan Horlick paling best, sebab kita boleh practice nyanyi sama-sama sambil buat senaman muka dan mulut..kan Hadirah. Jimat dan pantas sekali. Iklan yang mengajar tentang jenis vitamin dan zat-zat untuk sihat. Horlick, pilihan saya~sejak bila neh tukar profesion? Sejak hari-hari terakhir study week maa..

Dracula
I know most of us tak suka watak ni dalam apa jua cerita hantu.Disebabkan masa tgh surfing jumpa games- Twin Drakula. Tetiba teringat dekat Pips yang tak abes2 exam. Orang selalu tanya; best tak jadi kembar? Jawapannya: MestiLah BEST, sape yang jadi twin saya! Huhu. Drakula adalah watak yang paling sy nak jumpa, dalam hidup, dalam mimpi. Tapi bukan untuk dihisap darah, sbb darah ana byk interleukin,histamine, monocytes..haha tipu jer. Drakula watak horror paling macho sbb ada gigi canine yg tajam and buccally erupted~mcm a.Udin. Bila senyum mesti nampak sangat comey!Sangat tomei~bak kata Hadirah. Tapi masih perlukan rawatan orthodontic ya.

Besday Girl
Kalau 29/4 birthday Hadirah(oi, Pips hang satu umah sewa abiskn kek hadirah ye?) semlm besday mak nye pulak yang ke...Dah tua pun. Bykn amalan sebg bekalan di akhirat nanti. Kecian Hadirah, mama dan papa kene keje jauh nun. Tinggallah awak sorang2 kat nursery tu. Klu achik ada kan senang. Tapi comey, tak dapat rehat lah achik ni. Doakan achik lulus cemerlang dalam exam Ahad hingga Selasa ni.

Ayahku Sayang

Lepas opt ari tuh, tiba2 ayah jadi 'the most sporting' dad ever. Hmm..wonder why?*wink* lagi. Bila makan selalu ajak ramai2 katanya makan sorang2 tak berselera. Bila ana nak balik hostel mesti mintak adik yg ada kat rumah hantarkan. Pastu cari excuse, sruh ana balik rumah. Mak pun pelik.Biasalah tu, bila dah makin tua..huk..huk banyak benda difikirkan. Ayah nak top-up, ayah itu ini. Mak akan geleng kepala tengok telatah anak-anaknya.

this song dedicate to YOU;

My Girl

I've got sunshine on a cloudy day

When it's cold outside

I've got the month of may

I guess you'd say

What can make me feel this way?

My girl (my girl, my girl)

Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl)

I've got so much honey the bees envy me

I've got a sweeter song than the birds in the trees

Well I guess you'd say

What can make me feel this way?

My girl (my girl, my girl)

Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl)

OooohHey hey hey

Hey hey hey

I don't need no money, fortune, or fame

I've got all the riches baby one man can claim

Well I guess you'd say

What can make me feel this way?

My girl (my girl, my girl)

Talkin' 'bout my girl (my girl)

I've got sunshine

on a cloudy day

with my girl

I've even got the month of may

with my girl ...my little girl...say ayah!

Quite Essential eh?

Yesterday, the room became empty leaving me alone with the stacks of notes, books and papers. My junior roomate asked if we can have a pic together.Umph..as everyone know although I'm a camera conscious (since everywhere I go, digicam is my bestfriend) taking my own pic is not my cup of tea. I rather run away and hide somewhere. I hate candid pics, quite expensive lah your pics some said. Whatever! Hopefully my rumate get the better rumate than I am or she's the one who be the best one.Sampaikan ilmu dan tunjukkan perilaku yang terbaik sebagai seorang mukmin.

Bila dikenangkan, awal perkenalan. Ana gusar juga dapat rumate macam mana lah ye? Takut tak mampu mentarbiyah diri alih-alih terikut sama dalam lalai dalam hidup. Alhamdulillah, Allah bagi medium terdekat untuk berdakwah. Dari baca Quran sikit-sikit, kita ajar baca tiap-tiap hari, dari solat fardu sahaja kita tambah dengan sunat, dari tak kenal mathurat kita ajar apa kebaikannya dan anjurannya. Dapat dakwah sedikit pun takpe asalkan berkekalan. Moga Allah menetapkan iman adik rumate dan ana sekali. Dia belajar dan ana pun banyak belajar dari dia. Syukur ya Allah.

Mulanya penuh sukar

Keyakinan teguh sendirian

Di bangkitkan sama teman-teman

Harungi suatu tujuan

Perjalanan masih jauh

Kemanisan menunggu ayuh

Masih penuh kesukaran

Namun yakin berkumpulan

Membangkitkan semangat tujuan

Mewarnakan kemanisan

Demi kemanusiaan

It's not your salary that makes you rich, it's your spending habits. ~Charles A. Jaffe (this quote goes to the spendthrift person..heh)

Adik tengah mencari pasal systole and diastole, sorry byk2 dah lupa akak mu ini. Anyway those 2 books benefit your knowledge. Like you said~'Quite essential 6t'.Amboi2, dah speaking nampaknya. Ya Allah kuatkan semangat ini menghadapi ujian mendatang duniawi mahupun ukhrawi. Datangkanlah kedua-dua kebaikannya ke atas diri ku dan umat manusia yang taat pada ajaranMU.

Seminggu ni, kafe akan tutup sehinggalah next sem. Susah nak cari makanan sbb kena jalan jauh sikit. So conclution nye, ana hendak menyeludup rice cooker masuk bleh masak2 nasi air ke,nasi goreng ke, mushroom soup ke telur ke. Makan untuk hidup, tapi bukan hidup untuk makan.Sesekali berlapar, mengingatkan kita pada yang kurang. Kalau di negara lain, mati sebab tak cukup makan tapi kat Malaysia mati sebab terlebih makan. Komplikasi dari diabetes mellitus, hypertension etc.

Rasulullah s.a.w melarang kita makan makanan darat bercampur dengan makanan laut, menjilat hujung jari selepas habis makan,minum minuman manis dan sejuk(bukan dari peti sejuk tapi sejuk pada suhu bilik).

Satu.Dua..Tiga...

Hanya tinggal beberapa minggu lagi final exam akan menghampiri. Kosong. Ketuk kepala.Masih kosong.Kenapa selalu bermain dengan angka ini. Ana tak mahu gagal, ana mahu jadi orang yang kenal diri sendiri. Kerana orang berjaya adalah orang yang mengenali dirinya sendiri. Tapi minggu ini agak terdesak mencari patient untuk exam, bacalah dua puluh kali minda ini hanya melayang memikirkan apa nasib pada masa hadapan. Rasanya, saat begini exam bakal muncul..janganlah diberatkan kepala dengan benda-benda luar yang boleh diambil alih oleh orang lain.

Mak..mak doakan anak ini dipermudahkan urusan dan dijauhkan dari perkara-perkara yang membantutkan perjuangannya. Semalam jua, di atas rahmatnya walaupun seketika tapi Allah tautkan kembali hati-hati ini di surau seusai kelas feqah. Selaut masalah melanda, melihat kalian berkongsi kisah masing-masing menghapus gundah dalam hati. Perjalanan sejauh ini, mula menampakkan duri-duri bertebaran. Jalan menuju ada kala lurus ada juga bengkoknya. Moga kemudi diri ini, jangan ada yang tersasar biar sampai tempat arah tujunya.

Presentation yang dibaiki perlu disubmit, jadual patient perlu dikemaskini, perkembangan dan case complete atau belum...management,management. Oh, my Lord help your servant! Whatever happen, I try my best this is the only oppurtinity I have to serve for my Deen, my Ummah and foremost to my Great Creator..o Allah.

I know, life doesn't come in the shape and form as we desire...that's it.

Undergo Operation

Assalamualaikum wbt, kifhal?
InsyaAllah, today ayah will undergo an operation. Please pray for him and us that everything go smoothly and just fine=)Jzkk