THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH..

This morning instead of treating orthodontic patients I ended up with OPD(outpatient). Quite tiring since such long ago I didn't practice extraction and so on. Ghezz..I hate when it happened~I break the teeth, trying so hard to make sure the remaining to be taken out...

'Look inside into your tiny head, look harder'

'Forget yesterday, we'll make a great escape'

Emotionally unstable currently. Like a big wave suddenly splash all over. Ha! I was too anxious for anotheroncall week, I want to go back home but something not pleased happened. Nevermind, just go with the flow.Half of me suddenly drifted, while other half continue doing work~ bonded the bracket, change achwire, activateappliances and so on. The hand and mind obediently did all these things. I've to find something that coulddistract mind, kalaulah Kuching ni banyak tempat nak pergi kan bagus! ...'Dr bersyukurlah' Albert menegur. Tersentak saya, malu juga bilamana yang non muslim pula menegur. Alhamdulillah, saya berdoa agar satu hari nanti Allah buka hidayah untuknya dan keluarga.

"Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan amal-amal soleh, mereka diberi petunjuk oleh Tuhanmereka kerana keimanan mereka, di bawah mereka mengalir sungai-sungai di dalam syurga yang penuh kenikmatan" Surah Yunus: 9

Asal balik kerja, mesti saya kena tidur. Sungguhpun tidur selepas Asar tak elok, mendatangkan keburukan. But I can'thelp. So exhausted, sebab kerja tak banyak. Hee...tak tau bersyukur lagi ni. Banyak patient pun tak best, sikit pun sama.Average is good anyway. Lupa nak ucapkan tahniah kepada Doktor-doktor Medic USM batch junior saya 2009 kerana dah ber'title'kan Dr di hadapan. Ingat amanah ini berat, perjalanan masih jauh banyak yang pahit melukakan di depan. Persiapkan jiwa agar kental menerima cabaran. Yang rezekinya ditahankan oleh Allah, jangan berputus asa~ benda yang ada dihadapan lebih baik dari kita sendiri sangkakan.

Pengakhirannya adalah kemanisan!

'Senyum di kala susah, itu tanda ketabahan'

'We'll do it all, everything..on our own. We don't need anything, or anyone.'
So numb here. Silent. Wish I could dive down under the blue sea. Talk to fish, seaweed, reef and even water if they could understand.Since I don't understand myself, so I don't put much hope that others can too. Haha..Seize the moment.

Happy 3rd Birthday!

Today is Hadirah's 3rd birthday.

GREAT ESCAPE

Saturday 25th of April 2009
Another oncall, looked we get hooked in A&E for ages..hehe nasib baik Ooi dtg menghiburkan hati. Ada org tanya siapa tuh. Saya jawab 'Kekasih no 43' haha..Tiba-tiba ; ' You hah, always so hot'. Joseph menegur. 'Actually, its not me who's oncall.' Apa-apa ajelah Joseph..Letih, nak balik tidur.

Friday 24th 0f April 2009

Oh,alhamdulillah after accompany my housemate to oncall so relieved after a bit haywire in A&E. But luckily I made an accidental encounter with an A&E MO that I had 'crush' once..haha bluffing. Happy to see his baby face and smiles.Eventhough about months we didn't see each other, he still recognize me. Hmm..no wonder because I was once known with Dental Abscess weeks. With his black frame glasses ..oh yes! he's Chinese guy with eagerness to learn Dentistry. Ignore him..he's just a part of my stories.

This evening we having a meeting not quite formal. But more on discussion if anything arise. I thought I wouldbe escaped from being forced to be in front but...Ok, Dr Siti sekarang giliran ngko bercerita' oh Dr Zuzalizan merangkapDOIC (dental officer in charge) tiba-tiba je nak kenakan saya. So, I start from the beginning how I being 'thrown'to Sarawak and so on. Yang kuang asam ada je orang yg sengaja ambik2 gambar diorang bukan tak tahu yangsaya amat particular dengan camera. Selain dari camera saya jarang dapat nk dpt ambik gambar saya.

Thursday 23rd of April 2009

'Alberto, where is the pt's card?''Ho..panggil saya Alberto ye, takpe siap Dr nanti'Albert suka nak ajar bahasa Cina pada saya... 'Dr..lepas ni kena cakap apa?' 'Oh...pukke'che'( hehe saya pun tak tau nakeja macam mana.Bantai aje). 'Mo mantai' 'Chai na li?' ' Tung nga?' 'How' ' Mei yo' 'Kai' 'leng loy' 'wo pu che tow' ...basic saja yang saya belajar.'Dr Sito' Semut tiba-tiba menyibuk'Apa ni, nama saya elok2 mak ayah bagi''Habis tu Dr suka hati je panggil Alberto''La..saya nak bagi Albert popular sikit ala ala Venezuela, Latin Amerika''Dr Sito, Dr Wanto''Amboi..eh mutto. Tak best,..kita guna Fazlo lah. Fazlo nak neslo satu..haha'oklah nak balik..kebetulan kitaorg escape awal 5 minit awal dari klinik.

Selasa 22nd of April 2009
Cannot recall. I'm sleepy head.

Give Me 5!

My 5 advice to myself;
a) Go ahead and never afraid of future
b) Enjoice and be grateful with life that you have
c) Never regret and accept the reality (don't dream too much)
d) Don't stop from working hard to make a wonderful world to live in
e) Dedicate my whole life to HIM and devote.

'Jangan berputus asa dari rahmat Allah'

My 5 goals to be achieve;
a) To have a saving up to RM 15k( not impossible) after 1 1/2 years
b) Travel to Medan with my parent and sponsor by me
c) Of course..getting married but to whom? just wait jelah
d) Having good times and happy hour with family and friends
e) Derma duit/zakat pada anak-anak yatim dan yang memerlukan

Saidina Ali r.a pernah berpesan 'Bekerjalah engkau dgn bsungguh2 dengan niat/harapan agar engkau dapat memberi zakatyang terbaik kpd anak-anak yatim' .Ni antara lupa lupa ingat.

My 5 criterias( 5/100..haha) I'm looking in a man that I will be marry;

a) Religious (not necessary ustaz) and good-better-best
b) Don't smoke
c) Mentally and physically healthy
d) Accept me for who I am and don't questioned me back for some reason look like he doesn't trust me
e) Most important..He complete me and he's perfect for me! sekufu, sefikrah,sewilayah, senegara..apa apa aje.

'Rabbana hab lana min azwajina wa zurriyatina qurrata a'yun. Waj'alna lil muttaqina imama'

My 5 things that I love;
a) My car ..Getz cayang aka Pepito (everything sy akan namakan dgn nama yg sy guna dlm buku scrap sy)
b) My laptop..acer yang dah 5 tahun setia,mana nak cari?
c) My phone..Archie, a gift from dad
d) My perfume collection..Body Shop
e) Cooking..so satisfied that someone eating my cooking

My 5 things/criterias that I hate ;
a) certain small creatures...name it
b) a person that is unresponsible, coward, unable to trust
c) dirt and messy place
d) anger
e) busybody

My 5 songs that I used to listen;

a) Suci Sekeping Hati
b) Fi Lailati Minal Layali
c) Lagu tema PAS
d) Dengan NafasMU (Ungu)..lagu ketuhanan ni
e) Ni deviated sikit ..Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol)..mcm dengar cite je

My 5 persons that I want to meet in heaven (insyaAllah...Allah of course I want to meet most)

a) Rasulullah s.a.w
b) Saidina Abu Bakar
c) My parents (consider as one)
d) My hubby and children
e) My family

My 5 things I do when I sad/ heartbroken/being scold

a) Read Quran until my tears pouring down like heavy rain
b) Writing poems.
c) Driving and go somewhere that bring trainquility like State Library
d) keep talking about the things that bring the sadness sometimes
e) sleeping with teary eyes..as usual or just sigh...what to do?

My 5 things that I regret;

a) not doing so well in SPM..but I redeem it
b) broken someone heart..this is the last thing I had/want to do..but no choice afterall
c) purposely broke the promises
d) tak tegur orang yang buat maksiat
e) failed to be an honest, good and caring friend to others

My 5 movies/drama/story I like

a) Peter Pan (oh..mmg cute, fly up and high..aye Captain Cook)
b) The Nutcraker (fight until the end, if you did wrong..seek for forgiveness and redeem it)
c) Roswell (cute guy..eh?.no lah, alien bring inspiration)
d) The Secret Garden ( sacrife is one thing)
e) Gone With The Wind (i watch this when I was just only 12..for literature purpose)

My 5 things I wish I could buy

a) SK II..haha. (i can afford but have to save ma..).wait for 'hantaran' je
b) a ring..(it's not fair mom already buy one for pips, but when i request the same she ask me to wait for my man..huhu sedih~tp dpt gelang!)
c) a bookstore
d) a Rexton? Lexus? Suzuki Swift?
e) a house

My 5 things you need to know about me

a) suka bawa kereta laju2 (dulu amatur je, skrg dh ala2 pro)
b) bila jumpa org sekepala...saya akan jadi 'kurang betul'+ a bit naughty
c) Ist impression important, I rely on it
d) my instinct so strong....tahajud kot sbbny..amen
e) conservative~ ada certain benda i stick to my principle ( maklumlah duduk bawah tempurung)

My 5 things people always ask me ;

a) mcm mana dpt nama Meor? oh pjg citeny..malas pulak nk bgtau-actually sblh ayah(maternal) keluarga Syedbila nenek kawin dgn 'org kebanyakan' (saya pun xtau nape diorg suka guna istilah ni) so anak2 yg lelaki akan inherited nama Meor and Siti bagi perempuan so my siblings pun 'tpaksa' pakai.mcm xsudi je..alergik dgn keluarga syed nih..
b) kenapa awak rendah je tp abg n adik lelaki tinggi? ~soalan membakar jiwa ni,saya kan twin so kenalah bagi separuh2.
c) nape mata sepet? ~biasalah xnak bg byk tgk maksiat, haha my great-great grandpa org cina kantonis ..bkn Foochow tau eventhough duk kt Sitiawan
d) bila nak kawin? ~nape? Awak nak kawin dgn saya ke tnya2 ni? ok jomlah..
e) ni ke anak yang tua skali? (antara pips n akak ana yg sorang lagi tu)~ makcik, saya ni muda lg tau. br sweet 17

My 5 things that I want to achieve in 5 years;

a) Already married insyaAllah...doakan ada seseorang yg berjaya mengetuk pintu hati saya ..amen
b) Further study in Periodontics
c) Byk aset dunia dan akhirat
d) Menjadi orang yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya (tp susah nk measure ni)..guna caliper@jangka sudut boleh? e) Ada anak..ngeh2. be a good mother

p/s: oklah byk sgt jawapan sy bg...yg mbaca pun sampai xde soalan dah nak ditanya. Sebarang soalan sila kemukakankpd..tv10..hehe.ilaliqa, klu ada inquiry..buat2 faham ye. Asif jiddan jika ada kata2 yg myakitkan hati..
~ one week accompany my friend who's oncall..totally freak..

Ya Allah,Air mata ini jatuh kesekian kalinya
Hamba ini lemah iman dan jiwanya
Ke mana harus lagi perasaan ini menapak
Mahu ke hadapan? Undur kembali ?Atau tetaplah di situ?

Bukan menangisi takdir dan nasib diri
Bukan jua mengingkari qada' dan qadar yang Engkau tetapkan
Jauh sekali membenci ketentuanMU
Kerna hamba ini masih dan sentiasa dhoif

Perjalanan masih jauh
Yang lepas sejengkal cumaApa yang dihadapan menjangkau pemikiran
Ini saja yang ku ingin sampaikan
Tanpa kesal dan amarah
Seluruhnya ada di benakku
Ingin ku sampaikan padaMU ya Allah..

Kerna ku sendiri di sini......

An Over'view

Ni tgh bkumpul sambil 'mengumpat'...bukan saya ye. saya tak mau involve dlm buat 'ketupat'.


Saya tgh main 'hide and seek'..

yang ni pulak tgh tggu makcik kantin edarkan makanan..biasalah budak skolah..

hah...macam pengantin pulak. tapi baju pulak karer lain..silap tak set awal2. Ekceli ni dgn specialist Dr Alexander Likow Giap..anaknya Ashton..tak dtg untuk mghiburkan ktorg kali ni.

Yang ni pulak dgn staf Klinik Ortho...ada perosak gambar sorang kat belakang tuh..'Semut' namanya, alih2 dia sengaja nk bg gambar xchantek..

My Precious You

'Harta dan anak-anak adalah perhiasan kehidupan dunia tetapi amalan-amalan yangkekal algi soleh adalah lebih baik pahalanya di sisi Tuhanmu serta lebih baikdijadikan harapan' (Surah Al Kahfi: 46)

Nothing much to write, but I love to share a bit 'bout my current and 1st carWell, I'm expecting another car after years working!When it came to a decisionto buy a car,life for me seem so hard. I need to choose a perfect,affordableand equip my need as a 'little' girl who had to stand on her own foot.Find a good agent, company and service,payment,interest. Took two months to deal with it now I know at least a piece of information on how to buy car.Because from the start, I imagine that both my dad and bro will take care everything but the plan not going smoothly. What to do? If only I had a husband(to-hire).Gheez..

Suzuki Swift always been my first choice needless to say about the price. I love compact car, save fuel, easy to park, small but spacious. But here in Sarawak, the price is too much furthermore nothing much you can do about the interest rate even for imported one.
GETZ! I already caught my eyes on her. In addition I want something similarto my dad's Matrix.

Like father like daughter. So blue sky, get ready for me.So far so good except some minor injuries that cause but unmannered driver. My caralready sustained few scratch..oh no! But lucky that only the paint wear off.Not to comment about the tint, I don't know how to explain since it was too darkabout 60%.First I saw it, speechless. My agent had tinted it as a special token(actually I asked for free tint). Huh, whatever lah my car already beingso 'high class'.

Since my dad always had eye on imported car, so do I. That's not meanI underestimate the local by the way, my bro's Persona..Pips's? Ask her?I don't want any problem in future so I need to find that are tougherand had better endurance under hard and tough circumstances.
Taking care of your own asset aka liability is burden anyway. If I was at homeit is my dad's task to look after my car..hehe.Me? Just happily drive.Typical woman driver~but I know a lot after all.

ok, that's all.Next time I tell you some more about...my cat.Hey, since whenI had one? My future car? My home sweet home? my oh my!macam karangan budak darjah 3 je.

Apapun saya mengharapkan kenderaan yang saya guna ini menjadi salah satu kemudahandan alat untuk saya mendapat keredhaanNYA serta mencari rezeki yang halal thoyyiban.

'Dialah yang menjalankan kamu di darat dan di laut (dengan diberikan kemudahanmenggunakan berbagai-bagai kenderaan..'ila akhirul ayat' (Surah Yunus :22)

I'm looking forward October. Why? Actually, I'm don't know too.It is just my gut feeling?Just wait and see if anything happened.Hopefully the good ones. InsyaAllah.

"Wahai Tuhan, tidak ada orang boleh menyekat Engkau daripada memberikan sesuatukepada sesiapa dan tidak ada orang yang boleh memberikan sesuatu yang Engkauhalangi pemberian itu" (drpd Al Mughirah bin Shu'bah,Sahih Bukhari,Hadith NO 799)

Flying Without Wing

It is the time for me to bid an adieu once again. Reluctant but had to.

I have come to this far supposedly nothing could stop so I can finish the other half...

Everyone keep asking when I will finish my posting here. No exact and guarantee answer on that. When the time is come, I had to wait until the approval maybe 1 and 1/2 year, up to the management. The easiest way is TO GET MARRIED. Oh, sound awful!

Fly away from home, may you find the calmness and wonderful memories..

p/s: Wonderpets...I'll be missing them. The true saviours (ops..for my niece)

Don't quit

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit -
Rest, if you must, but don't quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out---
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

- Author unknown -

p/s: enaknya tengok Licence To Grill...yummy(tiada kaitan dengan tajuk di atas)..but I've something..

LoveBug..

3 hectic and almost made me speechless days already gone. Like a bussines person, flying here and there. Haha..finally I rather travel by air than road eventhough cost me a lot since I had to afford mom and Hadirah but nevermind bila lagi anak-anak nak belanja parent sendiri kan ? It's really mean a lot for me. Having a new family member, give you a wonderful feeling but in the end of day~you disastrous..hee. Penat seh, layan anak sulung yang cemburu tahap dinosour macam Hadirah.

LITTLE REBELIOUS

I listed all the annoying and harmful things that she can and already did to her lil bro: bila baby menangis,dia pun turut menangis bahkan lagi kuat, goyangkan baby cot until Luqman asyik terkejut, curi pampers then pakai kat toy bear, pecahkan minyak baby, main bedak sampai habis cot and lantai, tarik baju and kain wrapping baby, acah untuk lempar botol dan bedak pada Luqman, tarik tangan dan kaki Luqman, bila tgh breastfeeding dia pergi korek mulut dan mata Luqman and many-many more. Saya mengamuk dan marah dia pun, boleh dia buat muka tak bersalah. Aduh, pening betul dapat anak buah macam ni.

SARAWAK..Oh Tanah Air Mu..(Kelantan Negeriku)

Tu tengah tunjuk next posting area~Kelantan lagi spesifik bandar Pasir Puteh..bukan Tanah Putih ye. Bila cuti panjang, malas sudah kaki mahu melangkah kembali kerja(bestnya mcm ni tak kerja tapi gaji jalan, duh!) Pes Laksa Sarawak masih setia dalam peti ais, tak bersemangat nak memasak masakan bersantan ni~insyaAllah petang esok sebelum bertolak pulang harapnya menjadilah laksa Sarawak. Lepas ni, nak masak mee kolok ke? Sama-sama kita nantikan dalam episod akan datang. To be honest, anything yang resemble mi megi memang saya takkan makan except Mamee Monster yang rangup itu..ngeh.

MARI MELABUR

Akhir-akhir ni, abang saya asyik duk nasihat saya melabur untuk kumpul duit for future tapi saya pun tengah survey tengok yang mana halalan thoyyiban, banyak benefit and so on sebab kalau harapkan menyimpan sahaja memang tak cukup especially bagi kaum lelaki yang sedang merancang untuk berkahwin dalam waktu terdekat( kalau dia baca ni, mesti terasa bahangnya tambahan kalau kahwin dengan orang dari certain negeri). Kalau saya, better bersederhana dari merana di kemudian hari. Cukuplah majlis yang diberkatiNYA dan disertai dengan doa agar berkekalan mawaddah wa rahmah sepanjang perkahwinan. Enough..(insyaAllah saya pun dah janji dgn dia nak sponsor, rasa mcm puas hati dapat tolong sikit walaupun tak dapat banyak). Tapi ingat pelaburan untuk Akhirat itu segalanya...

Show Me The Meaning

Banyak petunjuk yang saya dapat, tapi hati saya tak mampu nak buka. Oh, memang degil sungguh saya ni. Sedangkan berdoa selalu agar diberi petunjuk, tapi sudahnya saya tetap macam tu. Phew..inilah saya. Tapi saat ni, satu je benda boleh distract fikiran saya~ kereta saya. Hee, tipu je. Oh rindunya pada dia. Agaknya nyamuk bersarang dengan enaknya dalam enjin tuh. Huh, siaplah mereka nanti! Go..go Jawa Rangers..eh, silap pulak.

Don't be encumbered by history, just go out and do something wonderful." - Robert Noyce -

p/s: “If we aren’t willing to pay a price for our values, then we should ask ourselves whether we truly believe in them at all.” - Barack H. Obama -

Berita Gembira...

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Alhamdulillah, pada pagi yang penuh berkat di samping orang mengundi bertambah lagi seorang ahli keluarga saya. Hadirah kini sudah menjadi Kak Long kepada seorang adik lelaki. InsyaAllah harapnya putera seorang tu sihat walafiat dan bakal menjadi anak yang soleh serta taat pada orang tuanya. Namanya belum difikirkan lagi...tapi kalau saya, macam biasa letak nama anak bermula dengan huruf 'A' dan yang pendek saje, senang disebut dan maksudnya yang baik-baik.

InsyaAllah moga kemenangan berpihak pada yang benar dan yang bersungguh-sungguh dalam menegakkan syiar Islam di bumi ini. Janji Allah adalah pasti,cuma dekat atau jauh sahaja. Saya teruja tapi tiada kesempatan, insyaAllah kelak ada lagi peluang untuk menyumbang dan mengembleng tenaga. Nampaknya, malam ni juga terpaksa bertolak ke KL jadi babysitter. Kan bagus kalau tiket flight murah mcm bas !(hehe..nak jimat punya pasal) tapi by hook or by crook saya kena pulang sebelum Ahad ni. Oh, saya malas nak pulang ke Sarawak~tapi sudah tgjb dan sebhgn dr ibadah saya mana boleh lari.

Malik bin Dinar rahimahulLAH pernah berkata:

“Sebesar mana kadar kesedihanmu untuk urusan dunia, maka sebesar itu pulalah akan terusir obsesi akhiratmu. Samalah jua dengan sebesar mana kadar kegelisahanmu untuk urusan akhirat, maka sebesar itu pulalah akan terbuang obsesi duniamu.”

Mou Sukoshi..

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Don't know how to potray this feeling, it is hard to convey though I've tried. But...' You maybe disappointed when you failed but you DOOMED if you don't try'- anonymous. Though, I'm bit skeptical when it comes to the outcomes, until I quite comfortable with this thought - better not to try otherwise you hurt once again. Since failure not my fave word in life. I dont know how but it happened for instance.

Afraid to try and afraid to face the bitterness and hurtful things, I'm still having thin skin syndrom and always confined in my comfort zone rather than taking a risk. It's awful then! Anyway, being in the middle in family had mould me into someone that pretended to be independent even inside I'm totally screwed out sometimes. Tougher outside but shatter inside in certain incidence.

Even till this moment, I admit I'm not so strong and positive anymore in one aspect. I've been a failure once and to be another one..I think it's too much.Phew, I always pray that I been given strength, courage,simplification and foremost FAITH. Nothing much (it's enough to ask 4 things out of 10?. hehe).

So..last but not least I dedicate this song entitled as above to myself..should or should not I convey this feeling to the particular (known but remains unknown)...

(^_^)

When I noticed I was thinking about you...
I felt very embarassed
And I really hate that feeling
That's because I'm afraid to convey my feeling

Even though I suppress it in my head I can't do anything about my heart
I don't let you notice it when we meet
So it can be normal how I plan to talk to you

To act so composed has started to hurt
Lying to you I will put away... but

A little more... A little more...
If I can get closer to your heart
A little more... A little more...
So that this moment won't end

Please God, give me courage

When I'm alone with my bad crazy thoughts
I worry about what you think of me
I'm sorry I stepped forward to try to let you know

I'm not myself, I don't like the fog around my heart
Depending on someone else makes me run away... but

A little more... A little more...
If I can get beside you
A little more... A little more...
Night does not continue once dawn comes
So wipe away your tears when you're feeling lonely

The glowing moon floats out into the heavens
I'm not stronger or more confident
See me smiling, look, OK?

A little more... A little more...
If I can get beside you
A little more... A little more...
Night does not continue once dawn comes

A little more... A little more...
If I can get closer to your heart
A little more... A little more...
So that this moment won't end

Please God, give me courage

this song actually not resemble me..but my sis get fond of it, so I've been influence by it( the truth only 1% maybe??)