Ghaddul Bashar

"Sesungguhnya bukanlah mata itu yang buta tetapi hati yang letaknya di dalam jasad itu yang buta"

Sunday, April 23, 2006

MY JoURnEY

Here is my journey to Perak :

DAY 1- At 1030 am we left our home to Perak, the sun shone brightly and brilliantly like I was that day. All the burdens I left behind for awhile before I get started once again. We passed the mountain, waterfall, untouched jungle( but some part of them the trees were cut down for timber), and thanks Allah this time we didn’t encounter with the elephants like we did previously! I felt so much serenity. Such a long time we didn’t have talk in car ,laughing, share the jokes, make up stories and so on..Our journey was shorten after all since the old-zig zag road were changed with the new one, father drove mom’s auto MPV and just 5 of us not 10 as usual. 4.30 pm we arrived at Ipoh and mother would like to take a stroll in Ipoh ‘GreenTown’ unfortunately we get lost until the town named-Pasir Putih (haha..same as our home town in Kelantan).But nevermind at least we knew and get used with that so at last we decided just to go back to Opah’s. We pass the UTP at Tronoh which is about 5-8 km from Opah’s I guess. Hopefully, my dearie bro. can make it for the interview or waiting for UIA. Then 6 pm we safely arrived at opah’s home. “Kak Fizah, can I borrow your digicam for awhile?’ my bro. asking..
“For what? It’s already 6.50 pm. You don’t take bath yet ’
Reluctantly, I just gave it to him and waiting what he’s up to.
‘Here, I catched some pics of the sun set nearby the river’ I just smiled,is this what you do?
Oh, my bro!

DAY 2-My sis and I woke up late that morning, the result of tiredness and long chit chatting with our auntie who had lost her youngest child. She still in bereavement stage..she kept talking about his son-made us feel how hard the burden they had to face. But ALLAH loves him more than us do, I didn’t know how to react.I didn't’t want to cry in front of her but all I can do was-LISTENING. I’m too feel his lost.. no more person to be massage , to be chatting with, to be feed on, to do exercise and to look into oral cavity,teeth any ulcer and what’s more I didn’t have chance to do treatment on you..my dear. I know letting you go is a must but memory remain in our heart and soul.

That evening, father took us to dusun where we planted rambutans, durians and duku years ago. Father told us a lot of his stories during childhood until adult- ride on bicycle with friends, go around keliling kampung, jual jambu and durian from great grandma’s orchard without great granddad permission. Hehe, the naughtiness already been inherited !The old people really independent compare to us now.Waiting to be spoon feeding.
At night, we went to Sitiawan our auntie’s home. This was the second time we had ‘buah langsat’ means tersesat lah. And having great time there went around the town.At 1 am we arrived home and slept soundly below the kelambu and away from mosquito’s bites.

Day 3-Had to wake up early because registration started at 8 am..huargh.Wake up,wake up.
'Eh, nape baju kemeja Fahmi nampak macam tak bergosok je,meh kak fizah tlg iron' fuh..penatnya.Huh,already 715 am !Look like I'm the only one who's not packing yet due to ironing.As being planned at 830 am, we stood in front of UTP.Luckily yesterday I suddenly met my friend at former school who is studying at UTP giving her tips on how to attain good mark for interview.As the MPV went inside the campus..whoa,cantiknya masjid ada tasik kat tepi.Tapi..berapa ramaikah insan-insan yang sudi bertandang ke rumah Allah itu? hehe,insyaALLAH ramai kot(ada unsur2 husnu dzon). 'Ayah nanti kita berenti jap ye,nak ambik gambar'.
Since we still early so didn't have to queue up yet. Alhamdulillah,settle.Then need to find the room. Every candidate I saw have 'brilliant' look plus with proper attire even some of them wear blazer compare to my bro just a blank shirt with loose fitting jeans (huh,I never like people with fit jeans).Nevermind Fahmi,whatever your wear you still handsome,brilliant and funny in my eyes and soul=) except if you are in Snoopy t-shirt.That's one I cannot bear. I know,you little bit nervous, feel lack of something but remember as long as you believe in Allah and yourself it's okay lah. Everyone has their own talent right? InsyaAllah,I always pray for yoour success because I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..mhuahaha.

At 1030 am, we left the UTP headed to Kelantan Darul Naim. May this journey help me enough to face the hurdle once again.InsyaALLAH.

Friday, April 21, 2006

Rahmat Ujian

Dalam derita ada bahagia
Dalam gembira mungkin terselit duka
Tak siapa tahu
Tak siapa pinta ujian bertamu
Bibir mudah mengucap sabar
Tapi hatilah yang remuk menderitaInsan memandang
Mempunyai berbagai tafsiran
Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya

Harus ada rasa bersyukur
Di setiap kali ujian menjelma
Itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
Hanya yang terpilih sahaja
Antara berjuta mendapat rahmatNya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi
Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi
Segala ujian diberi
Maka bersyukurlah selalu...

.:Percayalah ujian Allah datang tak kira bentuk dan tak kira masa. Pengalaman ana banyak mengajar dan itulah guru terbaik untuk diri sendiri sehingga sekarang.Adakalanya kita rasa sangat tak berdaya, lemah, lelah dan kering sudah air mata ini.Hatta sedang sibuk prep untuk exam; dihadapkan pelbagai ujian dari penjuru-penjuru disekeliling mahu patah semangat juga tetapi DOA itu senjata orang mukmin. Tika kita rasa tak berdaya, pohonlah padaNYA agar diberikan kekuatan, kerana hanya dariNya sahaja kekuatan itu hadir. Usah merasa susah untuk menangis kerana menangis tanda jiwa seorang hamba.Dan ana suka menangis tapi semasa bermunajat je.Then, rasa tenang sangat sbb Allah Maha Mendengar!

InsyaAllah, esok nak balik Perak jap jenguk mak sedara, opah and hantar adik interview kat UTP..nasib baiklah dekat dengan umah opah.Ambik kesempatan untuk refreshment minda sebelum menghadapi PRO II.Apapun buku jangan tinggal,usaha selagimana ada kesempatan.Tadi senior ada cite pasal usaha: Masa Hajar sakit nak melahirkan Nabi Ismail lantas Hajar berdoa spy Allah menghantar pertolongn.Dan Allah menyuruh Hajar mengoncangkan pohon tamar agar buah tamar td berguguran.Kesimpulannya, kalau nak Allah boleh je terus letakkan buah tamar kat depan Hajar tapi Allah nak suruh kita berusaha sampailah ke titik akhirnya..selagi belum exam, selagi itu ada masa kan?
Jangan merungut bila ditimpa ujian, ucapkan innalillahi wainna ilaihi raji'un. Bila dah habis berusaha, ucapkanlah hasbunallahi wani'mal wakil.

Inspirasi

Inspirasi...
Diriku berlari Kejar buih di kaki sirahmu
Malangnya tak jumpa
Hilang ditelan ombak masa
Lelah aku
Dan termangu di sini
Mencari sinar
Ku cuba mengutip
Butir bistari di pesisir kalammu
Inginku sematkan
Menghiasi dada kehidupanku lalu terang destinasi abadi
Di hujung langkahku
Kau inspirasi
Jiwa nan suci Inginku terus selami
Di dasar dirimu kilau cahaya
Mutiara putih
Menyinar ke dalam lubuk jiwa
Nan gelap gelita

Di dasar dirimu Karang indah
Halus penuh seni meneguh perjuangan kebenaran
Hikmah pekerti
Kau inspirasi
Permata hati
Ingin ku terus selami
Kau inspirasi
Walau kau pergi
Namun ku tetap di sini..

One of my fave song by Now see Heart..

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Up and High

Assalamualaikum wbt,
Since everyone is busy with exam fever including me,I cannot find suitable time to surf internet except this beautiful evening. Study group pun extensively after 12 am in the middleof the morning until 3 am!(compete dengan muslimin=)Wah, takpelah itulah yang dinamakan pengorbanan..bak kata mak takde kejayaan tanpa usaha dan sifat berkorban.Apapun pokokpangkalnya NIAT dan PERGANTUNGAN kita kepada Allah.Jadilah seorang muslim yang berjaya!

InsyaALLAH Selanjar 17/4 and PRO 15/5 ni,harapnya semua sahabat termasuklah ana dapat kejayaan.Sama-sama dapat melangkah ke tahun clinical 4th year then 5th lastly graduate as medical practioner and dental surgeons well.InsyaALLAH!Ma'at taufiq wannajah.

p/s:Piper;amboi main bowling sakan nampak.Exam..exam!Apapun jangan lupa janji nak belanja main bowling during holiday sambil jenguk soon to be delivered baby Kak Ina kat Puchong then serang kedai buku termasuklah pesta buku agama yang hang cite tak lama lagi yup!

Saturday, April 01, 2006

My Wisdom..



My wisdom..tooth
Hehe actually my 3rd molar tooth is going to be erupted (FDI nomenclature:38)
Unfortunetly in a way it shouldn't be
Partially erupted! and what's more
it started to irritate my opposite gum
Urgh..so painful (exaggerated actually)
But never mind, I will ask the dentist to remove it
Because we..human not necessarily have them except during
the old time long ago during human lived in jungle, being nomad and so on.
At last I got my WISDOM!
in my oral cavity.

AR RASUL QUDWATUNA



Rasul berdoa dengan penuh khusyuk
Air matanya sentiasa berlinangan
Wajahnya sentiasa ceria yang menyejukkan mata memandangnya
Sangat elok dan sempurna wajahnya
Rasul memiliki perasaan yang halus
Mengambil wudhu’ sebelum tidur dan berzikir sehingga lena
Suka makan secara beramai-ramai dari berseorangan
Bencikan kemegahan dan perhiasan yang cantik
Rasul makan ketika lapar..dan berhenti sebelum kenyang
Tidak pernah mengumpat,mencerca orang lain
Memakai serban di atas kopiahnya
Suka membalas hadiah
Rasul memberi salam kepada ahli rumah ketika kepergian dan kepulangannya
Sangat berlemah lembut dengan isteri dan ahli keluarganya
Sentiasa memberi salam kepada sesiapa yang ditemuinya
Bersalaman dengan sahabatnya dan memeluk mereka apabila berjumpa
Apabila berjabat tangan,Rasul tidak melepaskan tangannya sehingga orang yang dijabatnya itu melepaskan tangan
Apabila melintasi kanak-kanak Rasul akan mengangkat tangan tanda hormat kepada mereka
Tidak merenung atau menatap wajah orang lain lama-lama
Sangat menghormati orang-orang tua
Sangat mengasihi orang-orang muda dan kanak-kanak
Tidak bangun dari sesuatu majlis makan sehingga tetamu lain bangun
Tidak pernah menjulurkan kaki di depan para sahabat
Rasul suka bercakap lambat-lambat dan menyebut perkataan dengan jelas
Sentiasa menumpukan perhatian kepada orang yang bercakap dengannya
Tidak pernah ketawa terbahak-bahak tetapi hanya tersenyum lembut
Sangat fasih dan manis tutur bicara
Tersangat sabar dan tabah bila menghadapi setiap cabaran dan kesusahan
Amat kasih terhadap umatnya
Tidak pernah mengambil rezeki pemberian ALLAH melebihi keperluannya
Rezeki yang melebihi keperluan akan dilaburkan untuk jihad fisabilillah
Sentiasa membantu orang lain walaupun diri baginda sendiri dalam kesusahan
Tidak pernah menghina orang miskin
Tidak berasa terhina bergaul dengan orang-orang miskin
Suka memberi makan kepada orang fakir dan sering duduk bersama mereka
Amat pemurah orangnya
Tidak suka tidur di bilik yang gelap
Tangannya tidak pernah menyentuh kulit wanita ajnabi
Bersifat tegas, pemaaf dalam perjuangannya
Itulah

Rasulullah s.a.w Ikutan Kita