Little Part Of Me

It isn't easy but must go through

How many times I crying and laughing? Most of times, thinking..questioning..trying and been done this and that. Being married and having child is not an easy task, but I'm grateful to Him.

Me, just not being me. Did I lost 'myself' somewhere or just turn out becoming a new leaf to an old tree of me? Sometimes I did confess to my own staff since we are almost in the same shoes~ a new mother, bit relieve...we 'mourn' and then laugh at each other foolness. Ew.. the ugly truth that happens to most women I shall said. Get married and give birth to a child, then you know how..Its okay to get mad, angry and not happy with yourself sometimes but at some point, ready to boost the positive thinking and attitude towards it. And its good to have someone that you trust to confide in the emotion~ (hoho..i shall say, men eg: husband is bestly avoided since they are .....(fill in the blank) but certain issues is unavoided) We aren't saint afterall =P

Life's getting tough these days, with horrible experiences daily at works and outside esp peoples but at same time do contented with what we have. Knowing that other people even suffer much more than us.

The truth, I wanna go home..the place I keep missing my old days and myself. I miss my life...a time which I knew myself better and deeper..a little girl of my mother and father. Surrounded by a family which happiness is all about, helping each other to be better and no heartache. I never cried back then, when mother always rub my back and hugs me warmly with her soothing words....now I know why mothers are so special.

Afterall, thank you Allah for everything you give us. Alhamdulillah..

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..lonesome beauty with the crowd around..

Lonesome beauty

With a crowd around you

I see who you are

You joke, they laugh

Till the show is over

Then you fall so hard

If you're needing

A soul-to-soul connection

I'll run to your side

When you're lost in the dark

When you're out in the cold

When you're looking for something

That resembles your soul

When the wind blows your house of cards

I'll be a home to your homeless heart

Open close me

Leave your secrets with me

I can ease your pain

My arms will be

Just like walls around you

Come in from the rain

If you're running

In the wrong direction

I will lead you back

When you're lost in the dark

When you're out in the cold

When you're looking for something

That resembles your soul

When the wind blows your house of cards

I'll be a home to your homeless heart

Broken

Shattered like a mirror in a million pieces

Sooner or later you got to find

Something, Someone

To find you and save you

When you're lost in the dark

When you're out in the cold

When you're looking for something

That resembles your soul

When the wind blows your house of cards

I'll be a home to your homeless heart

When you're lost in the dark

When you're out in the cold

When you're looking for something

That resembles your soul

When the wind blows your house of cards

I'll be a home to your homeless heart

I'll be a home to your homeless heart ....

ME time

Alhamdulillah usai hujan lebat dinihari,mentari muncul pula
Ahlan wasahlan tahun 2012, Kullu a'm wa antum bikhair. Sungguhpun kelewatan 12 hari tapi masih dikira awal lagi mengikut perkiraan kalendar saya=)

Hari terasa makin cepat disamping en Ammar yang sedang aktif membesar. Bila terlihat gambar-gambar sewaktu masih dalam lingkungan 40 hari,memang nampak besar perbezaannya.Baik dari saya mahupun anak kecil ini.

Sukar untuk diceritakan, tetapi sebagai ibu..emosi memang naik turunnya sukar dijangka. Sekejap boleh jadi gembira kemudian murung seketika, bersambung pula dengan babak-babak menangis. Oho...patut la en suami cakap saya makin sensitif dan kuat merajuk kebelakangan ini. Saya perlukan orang yang mendengar, meringankan beban dalam hati dan fizikal saya...kadang-kadang berserabut juga kepala otak. Pukul 8 am-5pm sibuk dan penat menghadapi kerja, lepas 5pm tugas pada keluarga pula..

Allah Maha Mendengar dan Dia jadikan manusia disekeliling sebagai perantara untuk kita sebagai pendengar.

Akhrinya, saya ambil cuti satu minggu...duduk dalam rumah, shopping dan wandering around selama 4 jam dgn meninggalkan Ammar pada pengasuh=) Its a so-called 'ME' time. Hak pada diri sendiri perlu juga ditunaikan. Ambil masa untuk jalan-jalan tengok taman-taman hijau, orang-orang..disebaliknya ada satu kelapangan..sambil muhasabah diri seketika. Take time...

Ok,need to go have to attend little Ammar. My 'Me' time is over for awhile. C U...ciao

p/s: gambar Ammar umur 3 minggu!